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I Believe in My Garden Home...

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Cornsrigged piping  fluid flows in tubes held in arms of coiled cloth  rigid popes  opium stoves  clouds of smoke cut by the oiled wings of silent moths  sore knees  in the north seas  ice floes breaking down  and shedding tears like ants crawling up a steep grade  glacial crowns melting underground  dripping screaming diamonds into the desert sands  dead white clowns spreading groping hands  orange blood running down the brick walls  fading as it dries  into a shade of tan  fingers broken into splinters as the car door slams  iron pyrite glaze spreads over drying cree Corns
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The Actyour eyes cut through my rind  like a soft fruit  you slide in like oil  awash in my juice  my core is unbalanced  and you prise it loose  my heart is a seed  
that i do not need  so swallow it whole  and take it all  strewn across you  ruling inside you  i serve below you  i derserve nothing  but describe a circle  which contains my soul  and you are the tangent  parallel you run  
never touching, never ending  lines on paper notwithstanding  your breath is the trump  leave no stone on any other standing  your touch is the rub   The Act
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Tom Cruiseyou had me worried  but you had me and i wasnt getting out  you had me hoping for a minute  but you had me all the same  in all but name  and there was never any doubt  you had me praying for a mighty wind  you had me praying  but you still had me  had me all the same  had me just as surely and as gently  as the moth has and holds the flame  to have and to hold me  was the line you sold me  you had me, i told you  however you needed  and you bend me and fold me  just to throw me away  you had me  
you had me  you had me to hold me  then th Tom Cruise
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Dormant Portentshould i manage to peel you off  like wet clothes  steaming on my muddy bedroom floor  i should want to  should you want to  drift and trip  
like we do  sift and drip  like we do  rip and thrift  like we do  your eyes are like a hole in a pocket  and I'm like a quarter  i fell through  doesnt seem to be an end  to what i'm put up to  not what i sent for  like muddy clothes  sleeping on my wet bathroom floor  passed out in a pile of laundry  dont know or care if it's dirty  long night of freakshows  i hit the tile at 6:30  i'll b Dormant Portent
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Doorman

so then.

Fri Jul 3, 2009, 1:04 AM
i just went back through every one of my old journals. they're all unhappy. even the ones that sound happy...they werent happy. i was not happy. i was never happy. what the fuck is the problem here? what happened to being normal, living full normal lives that feel like they have a purpose? What....happened? I cant take this much longer. i really cant. i feel like Smith at the end of the third matrix movie. he's angry and ranting at Neo because all he understands is purpose...so he doesnt understand why neo is fighting him. all i understand is purpose...so i dont understand why i exist. i cant reproduce. i cant live by the rules of society. i cant be productive, helpful, or significant in any way. so why? what am i doing here? what is my purpose? what sick nuances of fate and existence and life made me who i am, and what the fuck was the plan? i just dont understand. i've never understood, and i continue to not understand, and i really really cant take not understanding any more. i'm sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself and i'm even more sick and tired of feeling guilty because i feel sorry for myself. i just want purpose. that's it. a reason. a point. a fucking niche to fit in and perform SOME ROLE that impacts SOMETHING, ANYTHING. that's all i want. just..something. i cant take this. i cant.

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  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: lovedrug-blackout
  • Reading: the talisman-stephen king
  • Watching: nothing.
  • Playing: super mario world.
  • Eating: nothing ever again.
  • Drinking: nothing.

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  • Current Residence: Maine (which is a state, in case you\'re AN IDIOT!)
  • Interests: Loathing, weapons, gasmasks, fire, burning anime (sorry fans, but i hate it).
  • Favourite movie: I like Dawn of the Dead. Fight Club. Ooh, The Machinist. American History X. Garden State.
  • Favourite band or musician: I like HourCast, Voltaire, Lovedrug, and Zeromancer right now.
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything but country. You know what they say: Country wants only for a flamethrower to the face.
  • Favourite artist: Giger. There\'s also this French girl who draws Lovecraft illustrations, D. Signoret. She\'
  • Favourite poet or writer: Lovecraft. Hee. The books entrance me.
  • Favourite style of art: I like surrealism, on the darker side of things.
  • Operating System: Windows
  • MP3 player of choice: Sony Rio (dead now XO)
  • Shell of choice: eh... conch?
  • Wallpaper of choice: blue, with white swirly patterns.
  • Skin of choice: soft
  • Favourite game: Who can make the coolest looking weapon?
  • Favourite gaming platform: Gamecube
  • Favourite cartoon character: Zim
  • Personal Quote: "Surely that was no HUMAN bee..."
  • Tools of the Trade: Scalpel, tweezers, sticky black pen, hammer, arrowheads, rocks, wooden handles.

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*EddieTheYeti:iconEddieTheYeti: 2 days 14 hours ago
Posting my gratitude for your kind FAVage my Friend!!! :wave:

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See enough horror and experience enough pain and you become separated from your self.

- ETY


An artist must create as often as possible. To cease this task is, to the soul of an artist, as ceasing to breathe.

- ETY
*EddieTheYeti:iconEddieTheYeti: Jul 2, 2009, 8:33:12 PM
I must take this occasion to express my deep gratitude for the FAVage of my art that you have so generously supplied! Thank You!!!

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See enough horror and experience enough pain and you become separated from your self.

- ETY


An artist must create as often as possible. To cease this task is, to the soul of an artist, as ceasing to breathe.

- ETY
*EddieTheYeti:iconEddieTheYeti: Jun 19, 2009, 6:45:50 PM
Thank you soooo much for the FAVage my Friend!!!

:wave:

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See enough horror and experience enough pain and you become separated from your self.

- ETY


An artist must create as often as possible. To cease this task is, to the soul of an artist, as ceasing to breathe.

- ETY
*EddieTheYeti:iconEddieTheYeti: Jun 17, 2009, 8:29:16 AM
Thank you VERY much for the FAVage my Friend!!!

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See enough horror and experience enough pain and you become separated from your self.

- ETY


An artist must create as often as possible. To cease this task is, to the soul of an artist, as ceasing to breathe.

- ETY
*SDGRAPHICS:iconSDGRAPHICS: Jun 16, 2009, 2:37:22 PM
Hey dude thanks for the fav. im still not happy with the piece but imma try something new now.

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I WANT TO BREATH SMOKE
*EddieTheYeti:iconEddieTheYeti: Jun 10, 2009, 3:10:19 AM
Thank you VERY much for the FAVage my Friend!!!!

:wave:

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See enough horror and experience enough pain and you become separated from your self.

- ETY


An artist must create as often as possible. To cease this task is, to the soul of an artist, as ceasing to breathe.

- ETY
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